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027 I Is Your Theology Liberating or Oppressive? A Deep Dive with Dr. Eliezer Valentín-Castañón

I took a Biblical Exegesis class this past April with Rev. Dr. Eliezer Valentín-Castañón, who is a United Methodist Church minister and scholar, currently appointed as Frederick District superintendent in the Baltimore-Washington Conference. He has had a long career in ministry and advocacy. I was delighted when Professor Eliezer accepted my invitation to speak with me about his personal journey of faith, from a Puerto Rican teenaged Pentecostal preacher to a mainline denominational leader, known for his commitment to justice, scholarship and community engagement.

In our conversation, we discussed the lengthy process of training and vetting that UMC pastors go through, and the importance of that process in light of low trust in clergy these days (see: https://news.gallup.com/poll/700736/nurses-continue-lead-honesty-ethics-ratings.aspx ).

Professor Eliezer also sent me these links to resources that help people rethink church and faith:
*Wendland-Cook Program in Religion and Justice
This is an interdisciplinary program located at Vanderbilt University Divinity School. It focuses on issues of justice that arise at the intersection of religion, economics, and ecology.
*The Bible for Normal People
They believe in a world where people engage with the Bible freely, without fear or guilt—where questions are welcome and scholarship is accessible.
*Dan McClellan YouTube Channel
Dan is an American biblical scholar who is well known for his activities on social media, creating and sharing videos on religious topics from a historical-critical perspective. 
*Misquoting Jesus Podcast
This is a six-time New York Times bestselling author and world-renowned Bible scholar, Bart Ehrman. He uncovers the many fascinating, little-known facts about the New Testament, the historical Jesus, and the rise of Christianity.
*Homebrewed Christianity
Their goal is to bring the wisdom of the academy’s ivory tower into people’s earbuds. Most episodes center around an interview with a different scholar, theologian, or philosopher.

And books that impacted his faith journey during his early years of theological awakening (with TBKB affiliate links):

Please enjoy this episode of The Beautiful Kingdom Builders podcast on YouTube, Spotify, Apple Podcasts, Amazon Music, Substack, and more! 

TRANSCRIPT:

Rev. Ruth Perry (00:16)
My guest today is Reverend Dr. Eliezer Valentín-Castañón, although you’re originally from Puerto Rico, so could you say your name for me without the American accent?

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (00:26)
Sure, sure. This is Eliezer Valentín-Castañón.

Rev. Ruth Perry (00:29)
I met you this spring in my first course of study class. I’m a local licensed pastor in the United Methodist Church, so I’m going through a course of study and my first one was Biblical Exegesis, with you. And you were amazing. The class was amazing. And throughout the class, as we’re talking about the Bible you would drop little tidbits about your personal story, about where you came from theologically and how you’ve changed, and it was very intriguing to me. I’m so pleased that you said you would come on and share your story with my audience today. Thank you so much.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (00:59)
Absolutely. Thank you, Ruth, for the invitation. As you know, I had some professors in my life and when we met with friends and family, they will always say, and he was one of my best students. So I’m gonna repeat that in this context. And Ruth, you were one of my best students. Thank you for being in that class.

Rev. Ruth Perry (01:18)
Thank you so much. That’s very kind of you to say.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (01:22)
Absolutely. It is indeed a blessing, when you explore things together with pastors, right? And as I said in the class, you most likely will be the only theologian in residence that people will have in their churches. The only biblical scholar that people will have in their churches. And that’s why this is so serious, right? This is such an important thing and has such a value.

I measure things for the value that they have for me and in my life, how they help me to be a better Christian. But I also believe that, when you take this seriously as a pastor, then you really see the importance of your preparation in relation to how this is going to help your folks in the church.

So I am glad that you took the course. I am glad that we were able to explore some of the things the Bible teaches but also the tools we have at our disposal today to study scripture in a way that is going to be more helpful to the current reader, right? To the present reality where we live today.

Rev. Ruth Perry (02:19)
I would love to talk with you as part of our conversation about the material of that class because it was really powerful and impactful and I learned so much. It was a short class because you were teaching pastors in ministry and so the expectation isn’t that we’re full time students. But the material was really helpful to me in my ministry and I’m grateful that I had that. And

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (02:41)
Praise be.

Rev. Ruth Perry (02:42)
So you wear many hats. You’re a district superintendent in the United Methodist Church for the Baltimore-Washington region, and you’re a seminary professor and a former pastor. How many churches are you district superintendent of now?

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (02:55)
Right now I have ninety seven churches under my supervision. Yeah.

Rev. Ruth Perry (02:59)
So what does being a district superintendent involve?

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (03:02)
Mostly working with encouraging people, encouraging churches, encouraging pastors, and once in a while trying to extinguish fires. This is part of the deal with district superintendents. I have to say, sister in all honesty, it’s an incredible ministry. It’s an incredible ministry when you’re working with congregations and you’re working with, pastors and they’re different situations and different needs.

It’s a different work, as I tell my pastors, this is not pastoral ministry as pastors do in the local church. This is indeed something having to do with some administration, but from my experience is a lot of holding people responsible for what’s happening in the local church, but also encouraging them to continue to further their education, further the work that they’re doing, continue to pursue the things that they like. and as our Bishop Easterling says, is dream big, don’t be afraid of dreaming and pursuing the things you believe are important to pursue.

I think that that’s something that I also like to promote among my pastors and and also for the local churches because it’s a dream of the pastor but it’s also a dream of the local church and my hope is always that the two of them come together, so that you’re working in tandem with each other, pursuing the same goals for ministry. And at the same time for pastors, it’s the business about also challenging their congregations not only to do pastoral ministry, but also what I understand to be the extension of that pastoral ministry, which takes place in the community, that is not necessarily the folks that meet in the church building, right?

So it’s that extension of ministry, that extension of what it means to be a pastor in the church, especially in the United Methodist Church, where our pastors we are not called just to serve in a building, we’re called to serve in a location, and that location implies the entire community where the church happens to be. I have to say it’s been a real blessing. It has a lot of challenges, as you can imagine, but it’s just been a blessing. It’s a lot of conversations, a lot of hurt.

As you know, Ruth, we all make mistakes. And it’s just no way to avoid that. We just need to be humble about that and then accept also that when we do something wrong, that we’re willing and open to ask for forgiveness and have the humility to be able to admit that, we messed up. I think that this is all part of that ministry of the district superintendent. There is a lot of authority, but more important than the authority that is given to a DS is also the importance of recognizing our own failures and our own brokenness in this journey. So that we’re related to our folks like they are, so are we.

We’re not better than anybody else. We’re not above anybody else. We just have been called to special ministry in the life of the church. And so for me again, it’s been a blessing. It’s been a blessing also to see how things work, at this level of the life of the church. Usually pastors feel that they’re alone, that they’re isolated. And I can tell you, my sister, that being a district superintendent makes you feel that even more. Yeah.

Rev. Ruth Perry (06:00)
Oof. Well part of my background is that I grew up in a Baptist church that was independent of any kind of denominational structure. We were part of a denomination, but it was essentially in name only. My dad was the pastor. I don’t know that he ever went to any conferences in our denomination or had any communications from anyone in our denomination. And there was a terrible church split in our church. And I just felt the absence of a district superintendent and the absence of a bishop, that support that would come in when there’s a fire. And so it was just a really horrific experience. And this is something that drew me to being a part of the United Methodist Church is having the support of that structure in place and also just the high standards that you have for your ministers that you require education and you require so many steps and so much accountability and training.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (06:48)
Yeah.

Rev. Ruth Perry (06:48)
I think it’s really important.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (06:49)
Well I tell those who are aspiring to be pastors, you are coming into the ministry of the United Methodist Church and this is not for the faint of heart. We want to have the best pastors, best prepared folks that we can. So that the people we’re serving have the best that they can, the best that we can offer. and so it is sometimes a lengthy process, sometimes it’s a very taxing process.

If you want to be a pastor in our church, it’s because you want to be the best you can be as a disciple of Jesus Christ, so that you can give the best you can to your people. If you’re not willing to do that, then this is not for you.

I was telling my son the other day, my son is considering ministry in a different denomination. We’ll leave that too for another day. But he was asking me, so dad, how does the process work in the United Methodist Church to be ordained?

And I said, Well, you know, baby, you spend three years in seminary. Then in our conference, you spend three more years as a provisional member. And before you can be a provisional member, you have an examination done by the Board of Ordained ministry, a bunch of pastors and lay folks who are part of the Board of Ordained ministry who will examine your theology, will examine your biblical knowledge. And we’ll examine your polity knowledge. So, how well versed are you with our theology, our history, and our polity? And once you pass that, and it requires three-quarters of the members of the Board of Artine Ministry to actually vote for you. So if you don’t get the three-quarter requirement, you will not be moved forward to provisional membership.

But let’s say you did, right? You passed the examination and now you’re moving forward and so you’re gonna be now serving for three more years as a provisional member. Then you’re gonna be now going to another interview, another examination. Of which time you’re gonna have to prepare a written document that expresses your theology and your biblical understanding and your polity understanding and so on and so forth. And I said, and that is going to be evaluated. So the written material is gonna be evaluated, your sermon is gonna be evaluated, your Bible study is gonna be evaluated. If you fail in any of those, you will not move forward.

If you don’t pass the examination, you may be able to come back in the following year after you correct some of the things that they will tell you you did not do right. But let’s say you pass and it was great. Then you will be going before the Annual Conference. Specifically you will go before the executive meeting, which is the all the clergy in the annual conference, and then they have to vote for you. And if anything happens that somebody brings an issue about your candidacy at that level you might not actually be able to move forward.

But let’s say that all that passed then of course comes the consecration of the individual. So you have a bachelor’s degree, you have now a master’s degree, so that’s between eight, nine years maybe of study. And then you spent three more years waiting as a provisional member and that’s if you just follow the three years, right? Well the people take a little bit longer. and now you, enter into the process to be considered for elders’ orders. And I said, so this is how long our process is. It takes years. And he couldn’t believe it.

He said, and you had to do all this? And I said, Yeah, that’s what elders in the United Methodist Church have to do. And he was just surprised. And then of course I explained a little bit that also about, local pastors and the difference between local pastors and elders. I said, local pastors have this, course of study program and it’s this long and so on and so forth. And for a local pastor who wants to be ordained, I said you go through the five years of basic course of study, then you do another three years of advanced course of study, and then you might be able to apply or request to be ordained. But you need to meet other criteria before you can get to that point, because there are some educational criteria that are part of this. And I said to him, and with all this, all these roadblocks, so to speak.

And we still have pastors who should not be pastors in the ministry of the local church. So that it’s not for lack of effort. It’s not for lack of effort to get the best people we can. We still will find people who should not have been ordained or moved forward as pastors in the church. But this is precisely because we want the best for our people.

We want the best, most prepared folks we can have to serve our churches so that our people are served by folks who are from their own congregations, but who have decided that they want to serve the people of God and provide the best care and the best knowledge and the best education to the people that they’re serving. I said, this is who we are, this is what we do.

Rev. Ruth Perry (11:22)
There’s a Gallup poll from several years ago. I can’t remember what year it was, but it was ranking the trust that the population has in different career paths. And for clergy I think it was only thirty six percent.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (11:35)
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Rev. Ruth Perry (11:36)
And so I think this is really important that denominations do have high standards for their clergy and a lot of accountability and support. But also the training too. And there’s a lot of support within the denomination to help assist and provide for clergy as they go through this process, which is wonderful.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (11:54)
Yeah, yeah. I think the denomination is also committed to helping and providing resources to folks to be able to do that. And we also encourage churches where people are serving as pastors to also support their pastors in this process, right? Because, you know, by supporting their pastors they’re also benefiting themselves, because as you bless these pastors and as you help them in their journey, when they move from your congregation to the next church they’re going to be pastoring, you are being part of the process of blessing that other congregation and blessing the denomination, right?

I think again, as much as it’s challenging, as much as it’s difficult it’s also a wonderful opportunity for all of us to make sure that we’re doing the best we can to serve our people and to be as committed to doing the right thing as we can and always again with the humility of realizing that even so we may not have everybody who’s supposed to be in this ministry and doing the right thing. But again, we don’t know what is in people’s hearts and minds. So we do what the best we can and that’s why we are so demanding on our clergy.

Rev. Ruth Perry (13:03)
So you did not grow up United Methodist and you were originally ordained as a teenager. Can you take us back to your background

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (13:09)
Yeah, that’s exactly right.

Rev. Ruth Perry (13:11)
and tell us about your beginnings?

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (13:13)
Yeah, yeah. I started my journey of faith first in the Catholic Church, as most people in Puerto Rico did, well, at least at my age. I became a Baptist for a little bit and then I joined an independent fundamentalist Pentecostal church. That’s the church that I became a pastor when I was 18.

And as a Pentecostal church, of course, we were, led by the Spirit and the idea was that if you know your Bible, meaning if you can quote scripture left and right, you are definitely able to be a pastor in the church, because you know, somehow it seemed to me that the biggest requirement to be a pastor in my church was that you know your Bible. So that you can call the Bible for every occasion in any situation. And so I did.

I learned my Bible and I quoted scripture left and right. And so I served as a pastor for a few years in that church. In my church, different from the Methodist church and some other denominations, we had several pastors. So I was not the lone pastor. I was a part of a team and we called our team a group of elders. Imagine that at eighteen you were the elder.

I remember going to a to a Pentecostal, another Pentecostal church looking for some assistance for a member of our congregation. And the young man who made the contact with the pastor of this church, the pastor was not going to help this young man because he was a young man, and he said if I bring an elder, from my church, would you be able to, he said, So yeah, bring an elder and so and there I come I was even younger than the guy who was making the first connection with the pastor and the pastor look at me and says and you’re the elder?

All that simply to say we had a lot of fun and many challenges but that experience also shaped me, shaped who I am as a pastor today, shaped my experience as a Christian until this day. There are many things that remain with me from my from that early experience. And there are some things that I just realized were not right. And those things I have left behind.

And it’s one of those wonderful journeys. As I listen to stories of people who have a similar experience than I had growing up in a Pentecostal fundamentalist church, and and they’re now in deconstruction. You know, interesting because when I was going through that process in my life, there was no deconstruction. This is just what you do as a Christian who’s actually maturing in faith, right? Now we call it deconstruction. So when I hear the testimonies of people I realize what an amazing experience. Because all these folks who are currently in this journey of deconstructing, is simply encountering their faith in a deeper fashion and just simply gaining an even richer understanding of who the God that they believe in is and then seeking to serve to be part of that community of believers but now with this new understanding of what it means to be a Christian in today’s world.

I remember one point in that process, we used to do a lot of street preaching. And we were in one of our towns in Puerto Rico doing that, which we did every week. And I was just in that process asking God for guidance. I said, there are things that we do in our church that I just cannot understand how we can sustain these things as gospel.

And I’m a pastor in that church and I’m asking questions of how can we sustain these actions as gospel teachings, and I ask God for a community of people that can share the experience of questioning and also growing. And a few weeks later I made that first connection with one other Christian who was also in a similar journey from another Pentecostal church. And we started a group of Christians, and part of what we did was we took time to study the Bible, but also studying then, things that people were reading. And so we started to engage in conversation. And that was one of the best times as a young Christian, discovering also more about my faith and and what God is seeking to do with us and through us in the world.

Rev. Ruth Perry (17:20)
What did the gospel sound like when you were preaching it at eighteen years old?

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (17:24)
Well, this was one of the challenges that I had, right? I had a very interesting situation where the people in my church and other pastors in my congregation were preaching this gospel of condemnation. You know, you need to do X, Y, and Z. I remember going to the leadership of the church and saying, What do we mean by this? I said, we are telling people that they need to have faith and to accept the gift of God by grace.

But then that is followed by, but if you don’t come to church, then you’re not a believer. And so I said, how do we sustain this message? How can we seriously say to people that what is required here is your faith and accepting God’s grace? And then on the other hand, telling them, but if you don’t come to church, then you’re not a believer, then you’re going to hell.

Let me just say, we send so many people to hell. It’s not even funny. We were so hard. We were hard on ourselves, and we were hard on people, period. And as pastors, we were very hard. Because we wanted to have the most consecrated and the most holy people we could have in our congregation. Just to give you an example, we had a church gathering to judge one of our members. Like a trial.

And the trial was because this individual spent too much time studying; he was in college and he wanted to do good in school and he was not spending enough time in church so we expelled him from church because he was an idolater. He dedicated more time to the god of school than to the God of the gospel. That should give you an idea of how my church was that I grew up in.

There were many other examples, of the things we did to people. And I will say the things that I did to people because from my vast experience and knowledge at eighteen, nineteen, I thought that that was the right thing to do, to help people really become deeply connected and committed to Christ.

Just to realize that no, this is not God’s will. For me at least. I came to the point in which, after seeing all the things we have done to people, and all our contradictions, that were part of our faith community, coming to realize, no, this is not right. This is not how church is supposed to be. And if we speak about a gospel of grace, let’s live into that reality and what it means then to follow Christ within that context of grace. So a few years down the road, I was about, 24. my church divided. It was between me and another pastor. And I said, I could not divide the church. And so I re signed. Different from many other people, right? That says, I’ll take my people and I started my own church, right?

Rev. Ruth Perry (19:55)
Yeah.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (19:56)
I decided, no, that’s not the will of God. That’s not how this is supposed to work either. And so I resigned and I stay in the church as long as I could. And I got involved in social justice ministries, I got involved in justice advocacy, and got engaged a in a strike.

As part of all that journey, and I kept challenging my church. I said, if we speak of justice, if we believe that God is a just God that calls us to do justice, How could we not do justice? How can we not support people who are struggling to have a better life and to gain access to better pay and to better health care and so on and so forth.

And so of course, one of the things that happened in my church is that I became the communist. I was like, well, this is great. So this is damn if you do and damn if you don’t. And I finally said to folks in my church, especially in leadership, I said, if you consider this to be my actions and my joining a strike for the betterment of people in our community, then I guess that I am a communist, if that is what it means to be a communist. I said, but I’m doing this because I believe that this is what God ordains, that this is what God desires, that we all get involved in this and support our brothers and sisters who are struggling for better compensation, and so on.

And I realized, I cannot stay in this congregation because I’m gonna be just a sore person for everybody because, nobody wanted to discuss with me. I will be quoting scripture left and right. And so people didn’t want to be told that the scripture actually does indeed sustain what I’m doing. So I decided, this is not helpful to them and it’s certainly not helpful to me.

So the community that I mentioned earlier that I have prayed to the Lord and the Lord provided became very much a community of faith for me and and we became a community for each other. When I finished college, I came to the US. And when I came to the US is when I started then exploring other churches, and then I became a member of the United Methodist Church in New York and the rest is history.

Rev. Ruth Perry (22:00)
For me, I started questioning the patriarchal theology I’d been taught and I got labeled a feminist, which I hadn’t been reading any feminists. It was the Bible. So that’s how people use those labels to push people out really who are questioning and rocking the boat and making others experience some discomfort with the system that they have in place. So who are some of the theologians and activists and writers and thinkers that influenced you as your faith was changing?

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (22:26)
At the time when all this change was taking place, especially as I was still part of that church, interestingly enough, I didn’t have a whole lot of theologians who were supporting my my ideas, right? I remember reading, Francis Schaeffer that is sort of the theologian of the of the 70s, right? That every good conservative Christian was reading. My systematic theology was shaped by Louis Burkhoff, which was a theologian from the early 20th century. His book was the book on systematic theology. I was reading people like him and Francis Schaeffer and whatnot but like you said I found this reading the Bible.

I did not enter into this political process because I read this theologian or that theologian or that biblical scholar. No, I enter this journey because I read the Bible. And the Bible was challenging me to do something different and to respond differently to the world in which we live. It was the scripture that actually motivated me, because I gather from the scripture the idea that God is a God of justice and therefore we are called to do justice, right? If we are called just and justified, then my conclusion, was then we should be doing justice too, right?

And it was after I engage in this process of coming to do works of justice in the community. That’s when I started reading and encountering other theologians. And we had a wonderful Baptist pastor who was a professor at the university. And as we were exploring what the Bible says, he brought a copy of his doctoral dissertation, which he was working to publish. He just made a copy of the eighth chapter, he says, this might be helpful. And it was a chapter on biblical hermeneutics.

And since I liked the guy and I thought the guy was, an upstanding Christian man, I read the thing and it just blew my mind. It was a chapter specifically on liberation hermeneutics, and it just blew my mind. I said, how could it be that we that I’ve been in church all this time and we have never read anything like this. That was a very pro prolific writer in Puerto Rico. His name is Samuel Silva Gottai. He teaches on sociology of religion. And from then on I wanted to read other folks, and so I read Gustavo Gutiérrez, because of course I also wanted to read something that had to do with my cultural reality, right? The roots of where I am from, and in this case Latin America.

And so I started reading folks from Latin American context and little by little gaining access to these folks and these writers was an endeavor. Because you know, in the circles, my Christian circles where I was growing up, none of that was available. So you had to actually go out and find some of these folks. I of course read Moltmann. I also liked philosophy. So I was reading Nietzsche. I was reading Kierkegaard. I was reading, the classics of existentialism in the 19th and 20th century. Folks asking questions and challenging preconceived ideas, right? And it was just this wonderful moment of discovery.

And as a Christian in the 20th century, reading back into the nineteenth century and seeing these folks have been questioning, this is a journey. It’s been around us all the time. And we have been told that, no, this is a lineal thing, right? I mean, we started 2,000 years ago, and it just keeps going. And then seeing this reality of all these Christians challenging and questioning theology and biblical studies, that’s when I started to, awaken in me this idea that we had not been given all the information. We have not been even offered all the information about what’s available out there.

I was a Pentecostal fundamentalist, and the best theology that I had was given to me by Scofield in the Scofield Bible. That was the thing that every good fundamentalist will have. So I was a premillennial. I read all the things having to do with the second coming of Christ. That’s what we taught, that’s what we preached. It was our bread and butter.

But then starting to move away from not thinking that Jesus was not coming, simply thinking, there is more right to Jesus coming. And it is fine to, teach about Jesus’ returning, but what do we do in between? And when I started asking those questions, this is what everybody got extremely uncomfortable. But my readings really began after my discovery that the Bible had a whole lot more to teach than we have been taught.

Rev. Ruth Perry (26:50)
So now you’ve been in ministry for decades. I won’t say how many.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (26:54)
Yeah, not counting the time that I was a pastor in the Pentecostal church, I was ordained in nineteen eighty nine. I started my first appointment was in nineteen ninety. and I’ve been serving the church since then.

Rev. Ruth Perry (27:06)
So how do you articulate the gospel now?

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (27:09)
Well, the gospel of Jesus Christ simply for me is a liberating gospel. The teachings of Jesus made clear his demand for the proclamation of the values of the kingdom of God. So if we hold truth to the values of the kingdom of God, which we find in Jesus’ teachings and throughout the New Testament, that’s what it means to live according to the gospel, right? That gospel that calls us to live a holy life.

With that understanding that holiness is not about how much I pray and how much I fast and how much I read the Bible, but actually holiness is based precisely on the idea that I love the other, right? That love is the thing that actually makes me truly a holy person when I love the other human being that is next to me, because our holiness is precisely inspired by God’s holiness.

A holiness that is based on the idea that God loves humankind and therefore is open to receive and welcome everyone. And so when I understood God’s holiness from that perspective and I understood what the gospel is requiring folks to do, is when I realized, this is about preaching the good news of the kingdom of God and living a holy life. And as John Wesley taught and then the Wesleyan movement have taught is that to be a holy person is to be a person who loves.

And if you spend your life in a monastery, which to each its own, but when I was doing my doctorate, and I was in a class on Christian spirituality. Some of the folks in the class were, district superintendents, and I was just a humble pastor. and these, pastors, these district superintendents talking about, the spiritual life of going to the mountain and spending months at a time or going on a year sabbatical and spending time in the monastery and praying and doing all those things. And I said, that’s nice. And once you do that, what do you do? What’s next? Because for me, holiness is to be people who love each other and that’s true holiness, people who are willing to sacrifice for each other. And if we teach the values of the kingdom of God, and help people to connect with the values of the kingdom of God, then it will lead us indeed to live a holy life.

As Christians, we cannot proclaim a message of salvation and the message of the good news without being willing to sacrifice in love for those whom God has called us to love and to serve. My doctoral dissertation was precisely on Wesleyan theology and its commitment to the poor or to the impoverished. The first part of my dissertation was the biblical foundation, right?

As a good fundamentalist, biblical foundation and then the rest of the stuff comes later. That’s what I have found is that this is the way we come to be closer to the message of Jesus Christ is when we indeed do what he called us to do. Live the way he called us to live and love each other the way he loved us. If we’re able to do that, then we certainly live a life of holiness and in the will of God. And, part of this is that because we accept that in humility, we also accept that, we’re going to fail.

This is not gonna be a straight line, if you do the following steps, one leads to two, two leads to three, and so on and so forth, and you’re gonna get it to ten. No, the reality is that it’s not like that. We don’t live in a lineal world, we live in a time in which the reality is more complex, and so we know that God is present through it all.

But we are indeed limited. And so accepting our limitations in that humility, we also accept that we’re gonna fail and we’re gonna mess up. But the important thing is that we are willing to redo, to retake, to redouble the effort to do the right thing. And the right thing can only be a right thing if we are able and willing to love each other the way that God has loved us, even to the point of death. So, it’s not a popular message. People don’t like the idea of suffering and giving up their lives.

But at the end of the day, this is what Jesus lived, and this is what he taught his disciples, and this is what we see in Paul, and we see throughout the New Testament. Anything that speaks about becoming, rich or wealthy, or anything that is about us gaining power and serving power so that we can dominate other people and we can bring everybody to their knees to praise our God missed the point. They missed the point. This is not about subjugation, this is not about oppression, this is not about showing that we are right and you are wrong, and therefore you need to come to my side.

No, this is about us being able to work with each other and then that loving of each other, realizing that we’re in this together, and God intervened in human history so that we can actually work with each other. And if Jesus died on the cross for all of us as we proclaim in the gospel, then it must be because God loves everyone. And so, how can the God who loves everyone not love the one who’s next to me? And who is different from me, who thinks differently than me? Well, it might be that that is the case, but it’s also the case that God indeed place me in this space so that I can be a part of that person’s life.

And I have to say in that humility is how much I have learned from other people of different faiths. How much I have learned from people that I did not think they were Christians and they have taught me what it means to be a Christian. And again, for me, it’s simply just accepting that we are not in control for God’s sake. I can’t control the results. if I could, the world will be a complete different place, right? But we cannot. And every time we try to do that, we simply show that what we’re looking for is to shape our church, to shape our society in our own image.

And that’s why we’re having so much trouble in the church and in society, right? Because we want to shape our society in our own image. And that goes across the board. I mean, this is something that applies to Christians and Jews and Muslims and anybody else. When you want the other to be just like you and on your terms, then oppression ensues. And the thing is, in the last two thousand years, we have changed.

Biblical studies have changed, understanding of the Bible has changed, understanding of our theology has changed. and it’s just amazing to think that there are people who still want to have a theology and a biblical understanding that is based on the first century. Even the people from the second century didn’t agree necessarily with what happened in the first century and so on.

But thinking that we can actually hold time and that things are gonna be just the way they were, and that that’s the only way that this is gonna be a godly experience, is denying the reality of the divine, and it’s imposing on God our will, our desires, right? Our our own understanding of what God is supposed to be about without allowing God to be God. Which again goes into the the same thing we do with each other. We want other people to just be like we are, to believe like we do, without allowing people their own agency, their own experience, and accepting the fact that, God is working on everybody. And so if we open ourselves to God, that it means that we can meet the folks where they are so that we can be pastors of the people where they are and we can provide the guidance that they need. And in that journey, even we might be able to learn a thing or two.

That’s that’s where I am, sister. That’s where I am.

Rev. Ruth Perry (34:46)
Well, I wanna ask one more question before we sign off.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (34:49)
Sure.

Rev. Ruth Perry (34:49)
So you’re coming from a background in the Pentecostal denomination and Pentecostalism and Charismatic churches are growing in a time when a lot of denominations are in decline and they emphasize the Holy Spirit. But then on the other hand there’s that whole seasoning of condemnation and building walls around the theology instead of building bridges towards people and loving neighbors of all kinds. So I’m curious, how do you see the Holy Spirit manifesting itself in mainline denominations like the United Methodist Church?

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (35:20)
Well, that’s a great question, Ruth. I see the Holy Spirit in the mainline churches, and specifically in the United Methodist Church, when we have come to that point of discovering that thing called humility, right? That we we we need to be humble. And therefore accepting also the possibility that God is working in spite of us, right? I think in all honesty, and this of course will be a point for debate for many folks, but I think that when we have opened ourselves to be an inclusive church, and I don’t mean simply gay and lesbian people, right? This is the inclusive church means how do we welcome everybody? Just by talking about the idea that we are a church that is welcoming those who have been rejected and despised and marginalized, I see the Holy Spirit working in our church through that.

When I see how leadership has increased in diversity. And I see the values of the diverse leadership we have in our churches and how they are helping us to grow. And I mean growth spiritually. I see the Holy Spirit moving in our church in that process. When I see churches that decide that they need to close their doors so that they can, turn their buildings into community centers because the community where they are need a community center more than they need a church and they realize that if they do that they will be a blessing to their community. I see the Holy Spirit working in them through that. I see the Holy Spirit working in the church and working in our denomination when we are willing to accept that we have sinned when we have tried to keep people out of our churches, that we have tried to tell people where they belong or not. And I see the Holy Spirit when I see churches that are opening themselves to experience the other fully, right? I see the Holy Spirit’s work on that.

Perhaps I just have also a little bit of a a discrepancy with the idea that Pentecostal churches are growing, at least not in my book. They’re not growing. They’re just experiencing the same things we’re experiencing in our churches, which is, people are not coming. And interestingly enough, it’s like the church, where I live, used to be a church that held between nine and a thousand people on worship on Sundays. And by the time I became their pastor they were a hundred and fifty to two hundred people on Sundays.

And they saw themselves in this, decline process, right? We see the Presbyterians and we see everybody just having issues with membership, right? One of the things that I learned is also counting who’s going to these other churches, independent churches, Pentecostal churches, what have you. Many of the folks who have left my church have gone to that other church. But even then is not the increase in conversions, right? It’s simply movement from one church to the other because I’m looking for a church that is more in line with my views than the one that I was at. And not necessarily that I found the Lord and you know and it’s just booming with people proclaiming that they have found the Lord.

You know, what I’m seeing right now in the US, is simply everybody is struggling with membership, or retaining membership. Even Joel Osteen’s church is losing members and some of the other mega churches that we have known from the nineties.

Even conservative churches are losing members. So this is just an ongoing reality that we are seeing in the US and in the American churches, and we just don’t want to sort of admit to that reality. And so we’re trying to give excuses, right? In some cases it’s well, as I was told in a church that I visited last year.

Our church is not growing, but the Pentecostal church down here, the independent church down there, and the non-denominational churches, they’re growing. And I challenged them. I said, Go and look and tell me if they’re actually growing, or if it’s because, people are moving from one church to this church.

And so they have more people because people have moved to this other church but not necessarily because they have gained new members, meaning people who were not church connected. In my experience, consistently, that’s what usually have happened in those communities.

We haven’t had the desire to actually look into what is it that we’re doing or not doing that is not inspiring people to connect with the Christian message. Until we’re willing to do that, we are going to continue losing members in our churches because more and more people don’t find the meaning of why do we need to go to church? Besides the fact that this is what we have been doing for the past 100 years. But if that’s all there is, and only takes a pandemic to send people back to their homes, and then they don’t want to go back to church. I can watch it on TV.

And so we’re having this interesting experience right now where we are decreasing in church attendance and it’s going to continue. When you see that the percentage of people that are part of the nones has increased to 35 percent of the US population.

These are not atheists, necessarily. And when you count the atheists and the agnostics and so on, the number is a little bit higher. But you have this huge number of people who decided they don’t need church anymore. It doesn’t mean necessarily that they’re atheists, it simply is that they’re not interested in church.

So when you look at that, it’s like, what are we going to be talking about? Why are people not interested in church? Which implies that we are going to be doing a self-examination of ourselves. What is it that we’re teaching? What is it that we are telling folks about the good news of the gospel of Jesus Christ that is not jiving with people’s stories?

That is not making an impact, an inroad in people’s lives. I can say, I’ve been in prison ministry, I’ve been in different types of ministry in the life of the church, and I see the appeal when you are in deep crisis in your life, and how church can certainly be a wonderful place for people to become part of a community that welcomes them and sustains them and provides support for them. And those are part of our experiences. But you know, a lot of our people are not in that place. They’re not drug addicts, they’re not people who are in prison or coming out of prison. Most of our people happen to be regular Joes on the street. And they’re not interested in church.

And it’s not that they’re anti-religious, right? But it’s just church is no longer something that appeals to them, it’s not speaking to them. And what is it that we are saying and preaching and teaching that is not appealing to people on the street to help them make a connection, that what we preach and teach about this good news we proclaim is good news for them because they can’t see it.

And so, it becomes this really challenging experience right now, where we are living in this time, where we’re finding it really hard for folks to make a connection with the church. And we so we’re devising programs and we want to appeal to young people by having a contemporary service, right? I was watching last night the Elvis movie, Change of Habit, I think is the name of the movie.

This is the movie where Elvis is in New York, he’s a doctor and he’s working in this Puerto Rican community of all places, right? He’s working in the Puerto Rican community in New York as a doctor, and he’s committed to helping folks and a wonderful example of this message of, that commitment is exactly what makes a difference. This is in the sixties, so this is after Vatican II and nuns came into the community and they took off their habits. And they get involved in the community and in trying to make a difference, by being committed to working with the folks in the community.

At the end of the movie, the church was filled, and Elvis was singing in the front, was leading the congregation in singing and they have congas, they have drums and guitars, they have a great band and a backup singers, on the side. And I was telling my wife, look, that is an amazing ensemble in the church. And of course my cynicism is, and this is what we think is going to bring people to church.

If we change our way of doing things by bringing this new stuff, right? That is going to to help people make the connection. If you have better music in the church, the pews will be filled, right? This is sister act. You sing it and they will come, right? It’s not the message of the gospel. It’s not the teachings of the church. It’s just having something that is flashy that is going to bring people to church. And we have been struggling with this idea for over fifty years. We’ve been trying to do that again and again and again and the results are the same. It’s not working. And so, again, this is the challenge we’re finding as we try to engage the world. But we’re not engaging the world by even asking ourselves what is wrong with our message.

What is it that we’re not doing? What is it that we’re not saying to the world in which we live, where the world is not seeing a need for church? And by that same token, what is the need of us church? What is the purpose of us being a faith community? And what is it that we’re supposed to accomplish in this society in which we live? Is it simply or solely for the purpose of bringing us Christians into the church? Or is it something deeper, which is what my contention is? You know, if we’re talking about the mission of the United Methodist Church, to make disciples of Jesus Christ for the transformation of the world. So, how are we working this out? Because right now we’re seeing a whole lot of things that are not transforming the world and is transforming the world, but not in the direction we were hoping for.

Rev. Ruth Perry (44:47)
Yeah.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (44:48)
And that is our biggest challenge right now.

Rev. Ruth Perry (44:50)
Yeah, I think that that’s so true that it’s about better theology, not better music or better presentation. But I think people are turned off of the culture warring and the fundamentalism and the condemnation and the judging and the good news of Jesus Christ, a God that’s love and that God loves them is what really is needed and appealing to people. And we need to get back to

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (45:12)
Amen.

Rev. Ruth Perry (45:13)
being a ministry of God’s love to our neighbors. So thank you so much, Pastor Eliezer, for becoming on the Beautiful Kingdom Builders podcast and speaking with me about your story and about your faith. And it’s really beautiful and I’m so glad that you were willing to share it. Thank you. Let me give you the last word before we sign off.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (45:31)
Ruth, thank you so much for doing this. As I’ve been hearing too many podcasts in the last several years, I’m feeling that this is a wonderful way of communicating something different that is not about how do we go back to the past because the past is always the best time, right? But actually how do we move to live into the future that God has installed for us? To me that is the most important thing. Just a recommendation for you.

Vanderbilt School of Theology has a wonderful program that is led by George Rieger and is precisely bringing the gospel of Jesus Christ into a different conversation today, by challenging the church, by challenging the institution to actually speak to the theology of the church. And I mean the theology of a church that is a tradition, right? This is a theology is not something that happened last year or the year before, 50 years ago.

Our theology is millennial. We have a history of theology that is exactly what we are just carrying over, right? And so one of the things that this institute at Vanderbilt is trying to do is to pursue that, is to speak about theology, but also to engage people in living

into what it means to be disciples of Jesus Christ. And there are a few other places around the country that are doing something similar. And the name of the organization, I’ll email it to you

Rev. Ruth Perry (46:49)
Yeah. I can put it in the show notes with a link so people can find that easy.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (46:54)
Again, as you were asking about, where I see the movement of the Holy Spirit. Well, I see the movement of the Holy Spirit in a group like that. I see the movement of the Holy Spirit in people who are teaching Bible on YouTube and in podcast. The Bible for Normal People has done a phenomenal job for the last 10 years helping folks to understand what the Bible is all about and what the Bible actually is teaching instead of what we have been taught for so many years that is misleading and is oppressive and so on. I see the Holy Spirit in many of those places, right? Because I see how people engage with those programs and I hear their testimonies, how God has used these platforms to strengthen their connections to the divine, but now in a non-oppressive fashion. And I think that, for me that is the Holy Spirit moving.

Rev. Ruth Perry (47:42)
This has been a delight. Thank you so much and God bless you.

Eliezer ValentínCastañón (47:45)
Thank you, Ruth. God bless.


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013 I Dr. Anthony Neely on Finding Jesus in a Noisy World

Find SCALES OFF: Finding Jesus Beyond the Noise of Politics and Coercive Religion on Amazon or ScalesOffBook.com

I am delighted to share this conversation with you with Dr. Anthony Neely (Tony) about his amazing book, Scales Off. In this conversation, Tony shares his journey of faith and explores the impact of coercive religion and Christian nationalism on his personal beliefs. He discusses the emotional experiences of recognition and reorientation, emphasizing the importance of re-centering on Christ and fostering healthy relationships within communities. Neely highlights the significance of vulnerability, grace, and the influence of figures like Rich Mullins and Brennan Manning in finding hope and wholeness amidst spiritual struggles.

I loved reading Tony’s book and found it to be extremely well-structured, enlightening and educational, pastoral, and most of all, hopeful. This is an important resource for Christians today who are trying to make sense of what happened to our faith. Tony includes questions and a reflection prayer at the end of each chapter, which would make this a great book group selection. And he ends his book with an appendix of resources, including a Spotify playlist that I can’t stop listening to.

Visit scalesoffbook.com to learn more about Tony’s book, reach out to Tony with any questions or comments, and he even graciously offered to send a free ebook to anyone who cannot afford to purchase it!! I cannot recommend this book enough to you. I nearly highlighted the whole book.

In our conversation, Tony recommends reading Andrew Whitehead and Tim Alberta on Christian Nationalism. And he mentioned his wife’s love of Martyn Lloyd Jones books.

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TRANSCRIPT:

Ruth Perry (00:15)
My guest today is Dr. Anthony Neely, who wrote the book Scales Off: Finding Jesus Beyond the Noise of Politics and Coercive Religion. I just finished Scales Off this week and it was a beautiful book that resonated with me so much with my own faith journey and I just highly recommend your work. Tony, right?

Anthony Neely (00:21)
Okay.

Ruth Perry (00:38)
So welcome to the Beautiful Kingdom Builders podcast, Tony.

Anthony Neely (00:41)
Yes ma’am. Yes ma’am.

Ruth, thank you so much for having me. It’s really, really kind the fact that the book resonated with you and kind of spoke to your own story. That means a lot to me.

Ruth Perry (00:47)
It, I mean, everything you wrote resonated. The whole book from start to finish. I just was really impressed with the language that you gave to this experience that I think a lot of people are going through right now with disillusionment with what the church has become in the last several decades and how that disillusionment can either leave us completely separated from our faith or we have to find a new way of imagining our faith and so this is just a perfect and beautiful guide to that and the whole tone of your book is very gracious and pastoral and so it casts a really beautiful vision of what could be and what ought to be the church and what Jesus’ heart is for his kingdom and his values and I just thank you. It was obviously a lot of work and a lot of experience and expertise behind this book and so I’m excited to get into it with you. But before we talk about it, first could you tell me more about yourself and your faith journey, Tony?

Anthony Neely (01:48)
Sure, faith journey, I grew up in a family that wasn’t very religious. In fact, I had an uncle and aunt who identify as Christians, everybody else in my family, it was just kind of be a good person. Wonderful, lovely, lovely people grew up, well-provided for. However, kind of understanding of faith was, you God is in charge of good things. Devil’s in charge of bad things. And very much so this kind of workspace mentality of there’s this giant scale. And if you have more good than bad, then, you know, one day you get to go to heaven and bad people go to hell. And it wasn’t until my family relocated from the Chicago area when I was a kid to middle Tennessee, I grew up in a small town in Cookville, Tennessee.

Down from me lived a guy named Bill Farrell. He just loved him some Jesus. Even as a middle school kid, he loved him some Jesus and was always inviting me to go to church with him and always trying to get me to come to his youth group. And I wasn’t really interested in it. And then he had convinced me to go to a Super Bowl party with him. And he was like, there’s gonna be free pizza. was like, I’m a fat kid at heart. So bring on all the pizza. And he also tricked me because he had said that there was a girl that he knew that I liked who was going to be there.

And so I was like, yeah, let’s go to the Super Bowl party. He didn’t tell me that the Super Bowl party was taking place at a church, so a little sneaky sneaky there, but we got in and halftime during the Super Bowl game Jeff Hall who was a kicker for the Tennessee Balls at the time got up and it was the first time in my life that I’d ever heard the gospel. And it resonated with me in such a way that I call it the working of the Spirit, call it whatever you want to call it from that point on. I was like, I want to follow this Jesus guy because this guy’s talking about in a way that I’ve never heard of it.

And so I think from then, like every person, you know, there have been mountain tops and there have been valleys and there have been struggles and there have been times like now, extreme cognitive dissonance and trying to work through this. But it’s been a beautiful, beautiful walk in this life. And God has been so incredibly kind and gracious to bless me with a lot of opportunities. I’m a musician, so I’ve been able to help lead worship all over the country and work with touring musicians and play at camps and be a recording artist.

He was gracious enough to allow me to become a teacher. And so I’ve been able to try to act out my faith and just loving the next generation and trying to encourage them to, you know, be good human beings. He’s given me a wonderful family and yeah, I’m more and more the older that guy. I just turned 40, just stopping to recognize just how kind God has been to me throughout my life and that just speaks a little bit to my experiences has just been this overwhelming kindness and graciousness that God’s me with hiccups of, I don’t know if I can say WTF on here, but like those moments of what in the world is going on and that’s kind of been where this book came from was about 10 years ago.

It was like this tradition that I had grown up in and come up in and had been discipled by and then, you know, loved so well, I started realizing things are changing. Things are happening. People are saying things. are identifying with things that in many ways are in direct opposition to what I had been taught about Jesus and what I had been showed and discipled to what it looks like to follow Jesus. And the idea of like scales falling off. Like, am I the only person who sees this? And for a long time, it felt that way. And so the book really comes from a place of just trying to unpack and understand what in the world is going on. What’s happening to, the body of Christ here in the United States?

Ruth Perry (05:54)
10 years ago, where were you in your ministry? I’m also curious to know what your education background is.

Anthony Neely (06:01)
So 10 years ago, I was still very active and am still very active worship. So I was still serving at a church, involved with small groups, wife and I helping out with kids ministry, things like that. So I mean, still very highly involved. When we went to graduate school in Texas, I can speak to that here in a second, but at one point I was, I think serving at three or four different churches.

So I was constantly engaged in service. So there was never this moment of, I’m de-converting, I’m falling away. Any of that, it was just, is anybody else seeing this? Why is everybody seem to be okay with what’s going on right now? And so as far as education background, I do have my PhD. So I have bachelor’s and secondary education, master’s in educational theory.

My doctorate in curriculum and structure is from the University of Texas at Pantoneo. Go runners. And so jokingly say I went to school to teach teachers how to teach. And my wife is a college professor. I always tell students I’m the chubby bald-bearded one. She’s the beautiful, brilliant Dr. Neely.

And so yeah, I kind of came from a background of research and writing and before this book I’d already published two other books but this was the first time that I had ever published something that was so heart on my sleeve, transparent, talking about my own faith journey and trying to help others in theirs.

Ruth Perry (07:23)
All right, let me see. So in your book, you organize it with a really beautiful framework of recognition, reorientation, relationships and community, and then wholeness and hope. And so I thought we could talk through your book, through that framework, and start with recognition. Can you tell us what recognition is in this Scales Off process?

Anthony Neely (07:46)
Yeah, absolutely. When you start realizing, like I mentioned a second ago, that things are adding up. I’ve been taught and told that following Jesus is supposed to look like X, but now everybody, not everybody, but a large swath of people seem to be caught up in the movement that’s saying that it’s actually this thing over here is Y. And that led to just a lot of trying to process how much of what I’ve been taught is actually based in the teachings of Jesus versus what I was taught as being essentially called Spade and Spade, a form of manipulation, a form of requiring adherence to a framework that doesn’t really have anything to do with Jesus at all.

And so the book itself really a, I’m joking to it’s 10 years of late night conversations between my wife and I after our kids were in bed and neither one of us can sleep and we’re talking through what’s going on. It’s lots and lots of text messages back and forth with friends. It’s diving in to book after book after book and podcast after podcast. Just trying to see the old adage, am I crazy or is everyone else crazy?

And I never intended to write this book. It actually started out as journaling and it started out as lots of voice notes in my phone of me just trying to process what was happening. And I mean, we’re beating around the bush here, obviously, the explosion of MAGA, the alignment of the American Evangelical Church with far-right Christian nationalism, all of this kind of coming together. And it started out from that journaling, I wrote a poem. Because I’m very much so a creative. Growing up in like the Southern Baptist tradition, I never really fit the mold of like, you know, hunting and the men’s wild game dinners. I’ve always been a hey, let’s go to a poetry reading and then the symphony or whatever. But it started out, I was like, okay, I have all these thoughts. have all these ideas.

Ruth Perry (09:48)
I would love to hear it!

Anthony Neely (09:49)
I’ll share that here in just a moment. And it scratched the itch of going through my own processing. This very much so was a therapeutic process for me. Because I was like, don’t want to leave Jesus behind. I don’t want to my faith. I do want to, I’m going to use the four letter word “deconstruct” some of these ideals that maybe aren’t necessarily aligned to the teachings of Jesus. And so I just kept writing and writing and writing and writing and writing and eventually what was largely stream of consciousness started to take on the form of the book itself. And so a lot of this came from just, again, me working through my own hang-ups with what I was seeing in the world.

And so, yeah, I’ll share this poem with you that is where the book was birthed from.

So the poem is called Come Home. So it says,

“Come Home” by Anthony D. Neely

I remember what it felt like
to belong.
To believe.
To sit beneath the steeple
with hands lifted high
and eyes closed tight,
certain that we were the light of the world.
Salt of the earth.
A city on a hill.

I still remember.

I remember Sunday mornings
when grace hung in the air like incense.
when we wept for the hurting
and we prayed for the lost —
and meant it.

But then…something changed.

You told me to love the least of these.
So I did.

And you called me a radical.

You taught me that every life is sacred.
So I said:
Yes. Amen. From womb to tomb.
That a child deserves more
than a heartbeat bill —
they deserve a full belly,
a safe school,
a mother with healthcare,
a father with a livable wage.

You said that made me
a leftist.
A socialist.

But I was just trying
to be consistent.

You raised me to be pro-life,
but only part of the way.
Only until the birth certificate was signed.
Only until the taxes got too costly.

You taught me to hold leaders
to higher standards.
To speak truth.
To seek righteousness.
Until the red hat came along.
And suddenly character didn’t count.
Suddenly truth was negotiable.
Suddenly I was the enemy
for not falling in line.

You sang, This world is not our home,
but then you clung to power
like it was a lifeboat.
Wrapped the gospel in a flag.
Put your hope in policies
and forgot the poor.

You told me my allegiance
was to a King and a Kingdom —
but condemned me when I said
His Kingdom isn’t built
on Capitol Hill.

Still —
I believe in repentance, new life, and resurrection.

So I’m holding out hope.
Hope that you’ll remember
the table is wide,
His yoke is easy,
and the burden —
is love.

And if you ever find yourself
tired of fighting,
tired of pretending,
tired of defending idols
in His name…

You don’t have to explain.
You don’t have to earn your way back.

Just listen.

There’s still a voice
in the quiet places
calling you —
and me —
and all of us —
to return.

Come home, come home.
Ye who are weary, come home.
Earnestly, tenderly, Jesus is calling,
Calling, O sinner, come home.

And so that’s where this kind of started was I got the poem written, but then it was like my brain still couldn’t turn off. I had so much more to say, so much more to get out. And I just kept writing.

Ruth Perry (12:49)
I’m so glad you read that poem. That was so powerful. I mean, it’s really beautiful just to hear that and that that’s the framework of your entire book too. That it ends with hope and with invitation and that there’s so much freedom and so much joy and so much available to us if we can allow ourselves to go through that painful process of letting the scales fall off and reimagining something better and new. And something old, actually. Something faithful.

Anthony Neely (13:18)
Yeah, I would say that it is incredibly painful to recognize that the worldview and the framework that you have developed is not at all what you claimed that it was. And there is struggle that comes with that. There’s relational struggle, there’s internal turmoil.

Honestly, I understand why so many people are leaving the church. I mean, the “Great Dechurching,” millions and millions of people leaving in mass because, you know, they feel they were duped. And for many of them, they were. And so, I tried to write this book, even though I’m not a pastor, I’m a teacher. I tried to write it from this point of I see you, I hear you, I recognize that you’re allowed to how you feel. I’m not going to tell you that you’re wrong in doing how you feel, but I do want you to know that he’s still worth your life. He still loves you more than you’ll ever understand, and let’s try to work through some of this together. And here’s how I’m working.

Ruth Perry (14:14)
You identify Christian nationalism and coercive religion as producing a counterfeit gospel that exalts tribe over truth, platform over service, and cultural dominance over Christ-like love. Could you explain what Christian nationalism is as a worldview on one hand, and then religion is on the other hand?

Anthony Neely (14:37)
Absolutely. Well, it’s hard to do them on one hand or the other because they have become still and it’s fine. If you want really nerdy, in-depth definitions, get into some of Andrew Whitehead’s books on Christian nationalism. I always point people to Tim Alberta’s book, The Kingdom of the Power and the Glory.

There’s phenomenal resources, but the way I think about it is Christian nationalism is the attempted fusion of national identity with divine authority. So it’s a blurring of lines between faith and state that has America as God’s chosen instrument for ushering in Christ’s second coming.

And what’s so dangerous about that is it replaces the way Jesus said that his kingdom would grow by trying to legislate transformation rather than trusting the spirit to do that work. And so it’s like from Capitol Hill, we’re going to put out these moral guidelines, moral standards that were going to try to fit you into this Christian box when that’s not at all how Jesus said his kingdom was going to be built. So you have that, you have the political element on one side that is trying to say we are God’s chosen nation, rather than seeing ourselves from what we really are a lot of times, which is basically a second Babylon, we view ourselves as this nouveau Jerusalem.

And on the other hand, you have this coercive element, this coercive religion, which is when beliefs are weaponized for the sake of controlling people or forcing adherence to some kind of set framework of what they believe it means to belong to that given faith tradition.

So essentially it’s a tactic intended to produce people as machine products that fit some kind of standard for communal belonging. So it’s trying to say, if you are one of us, if you’re going to belong, these are the things you do. You act this way, you talk this way, you speak this way, you listen to this, you watch this, and it reduces faith to a bunch of do’s and don’ts. However, it is hitting at our God-given desire for belonging, especially as we are wanting to belong and grow and earnestly grow into the image of Christ.

We trust these people in positions of authority over us as religious figures, and we assume they are guiding me to follow Jesus in this way. And so this must be the way to look at Jesus when a lot of times, again, just like with the political element, it’s more about asserting dominance and control rather than transforming us into the likeness of Jesus. And I want to say on both sides of that, there are people who do so in a loving and earnest way. It’s just like parents tend to parent the way they were parented. A lot of pastors and leaders within faith traditions and people running for political office are doing so because they believe that’s what it looks like to love and serve Jesus.

It makes me think, and I mentioned this in the book, that it makes me think of like the zealots of Jesus’ time. They loved God. They wanted to see his kingdom come. They wanted Rome overthrown so that God would be back at the political center of the universe. But the way that that manifested was so wrong and so counter to the flipped version of God’s economy or how God goes about building his kingdom.

Ruth Perry (17:51)
Yeah, and they do really emphasize spiritual authority in their religious systems and really teach the people who are part of those systems to submit and defer. And so that’s a real big part of the hierarchy of authority, isn’t it?

Anthony Neely (18:08)
Yeah, well, I mean, even now looking at, you know, people pointing to Romans 13, it’s like you don’t question the government because Romans 13; that’s not at all what Romans 13 is saying. It’s like, you know, what’s the old saying? A text without a context is a pretext to a proof text. It’s like you’re taking scripture outside of the context of what it’s talking about and saying that we are not allowed to question what our government’s doing, that we’re not allowed to exercise our rights of protest and freedom of speech against the government because your interpretation of the scripture says you can’t do that.

That’s not at all what it’s saying. We’re not told to blindly submit to authority. We’re told, you know, God gave us a mind. God gave us the ability to infer. God gave us the ability to ask questions. Jesus asked a heck of a lot more questions than he ever gave answers. And mean, following that model, I do think that we have this idea, I just have to submit, I just have to submit. I think that again, that’s coming from an earnest place of wanting to be more Christ-like. But that also leads us to a place where we can be easily taken advantage of and hurt.

Ruth Perry (19:14)
Yeah, that’s part of the saddest thing for me is growing up in this kind of religion, I know so dearly how sincere my siblings in the faith, what their faith is. I mean, it is very sincere and beautiful, and then it’s being corrupted.

Anthony Neely (19:31)
Well, and I think that’s one of hard things, especially within the realm of Christian nationalism, is there are political movements that are bastardizing scripture in order to pander to those people who are in love with Jesus. And they think, okay, this person is using the scripture. This person is using these words. This person is holding up a Bible or showing up at prayer breakfast or whatever, then they must really be one of us.

I had a discussion with my students about this the other day. And whether it’s within the church or whether it’s within social settings, I think a lot of that manipulative element is, just calling a spade a spade, is corporations who have built these algorithms who understand that we are going to be influenced by what we think most closely aligns with our worldview. We get boxed in, boxed in so that we get tunnel vision.

We start assuming that the voices that we’re being overwhelmed with in these social spaces are the right ones because if that’s all I’m seeing, if that’s all I’m hearing, that must be right. And then we move from it’s no longer us and them, it becomes us versus them. And if you don’t view the world that I do, then you must be an enemy.

And at the end, these algorithms, they’re not your friends. I had to this conversation with my kids yesterday at school. They’re not your friends. They’re not there to, you know, educate you or point you towards any kind of moral or ethical outcome. They’re there to keep you on these platforms as long as possible so that the people running these platforms can make as much money as possible.

You’re a pawn in the game and we as a faith community and we as a society or having to pay the price of the impact that these algorithms have had in further dividing us where we can’t even have conversations anymore without people assuming the worst in us or assuming enemies.

Disagreement’s no longer a disagreement. Disagreement is now an act of war. And that has done so much damage, not only for us as an electorate, but also us as a faith tradition, we show up on Sunday mornings and we sing these songs and we pray these prayers, but then we carry hate in our heart for our neighbor because we saw what they posted on Facebook yesterday. And so it’s like this weaponization of our sincere intent and our sincerity to love and grow in our pursuit of more like God, our sanctification, that is, you know, ultimately what’s causing a lot of this division to flourish.

Because if we’re only getting one view and shortening, shortening, then it becomes really easy to take advantage of us. And I think that’s what’s happened with so many devout, loving people is they spend way too much time watching their preferred news outlets. They’ve spent too much time being rage baited by certain podcasts or protests. This is on the left and the right. That the rest of us are on podcasts talking about how do we undo this world that we live in so that we can find Jesus beyond all of that noise.

Ruth Perry (22:34)
That is so true. And like you said, it’s on the right and the left. And it’s something that I personally have a real struggle with because I am addicted to my phone and I’m addicted to the algorithm. But I did go on a mission trip. I think it was 20 years ago. It was a racial reconciliation mission trip to Washington, DC with my college. There were 20 something of us and we got to go meet with congresspeople. We went to soup kitchens and a domestic violence shelter and had all these conversations and everywhere we went, we would say, what can we do? And they’re like, just listen to us. Just please listen to us. That was everywhere. Please listen to us.

And so I did, 20 years ago, I just started diversifying the people that I follow online. And now 20 years later, I can see like what an impact that’s made on my life, that I’ve had sources of information. And then on the other hand, I’ve also kind of woken up in recognizing or yeah, recognition. We’re talking about recognition right now.

I recognize that a lot of the people from my background that I listened to were angry. Even the preaching I listened to, it was so angry about everything. And that was just a part of the tone. And the message was anger and fear. Can you talk more about how anger and fear play into coercive religion?

Anthony Neely (23:55)
Yeah, so I think again, we all have this sense of belonging. also, you know, we don’t want to upset those to whom we look to as mentors, as leaders, as authority figures. And so we want to belong. We don’t want to rock the boat. And so we’re going to try to fit into whatever these molds are because we trust again that people who are, you know, carving out the path trying to teach us to follow Jesus are doing so in a bit biblically accurate way. And I think you take that along with the fact that rage sells, anger sells. There’s a reason that Happy Go Lucky podcasts that promote everything is amazing and here’s happy news this week aren’t the ones that are at the top of the chart.

We, there’s something about our nature, call it our depravity, call it our fall, whatever, that clings to anger. And so you take that with the fact that we live in a world right now where there’s lots of stuff to be angry about. It’s very easy to get caught up in anger, but, but as you recognize that there are, there are voices profiting off of my anger, that I am monetized in sharing these thoughts online. I am basically buying somebody another beach house every time I listen to their podcasts that encourage me to hate my neighbor and consider the least of these to be an enemy of the state.

When you start recognizing that, you’re like, that’s not Jesus at all. And why in the world is that spilling over in the pulpit? And so with that recognition comes, I would say, the dangerous element of starting to question because coercive systems don’t like being questioned.

If you look throughout history, I’ve been a social studies teacher for almost 20 years now. And if you look throughout history, normally the people who are taken out first, which Walter Brueggemann talks about this, in some of his writing. It’s normally the artist, the writers and anyone else who might question authority. Because if you start questioning, who’s profiting from this anger? Who’s profiting and being bulstered and lifted up? Who’s being emboldened by this? Then you bring danger to it because if you can point within Christian circles and say, you’re angry about this, but that thing that you’re so angry about, Jesus told us to embrace that.

You are so mad at this group of people. Jesus said, that’s the group of people that we need to lay down our lives to serve, to sacrifice for. Well, you’re starting to get in the way of their brand. And so there is this element both, you know, talk about a lot in the book is as you’re listening to these voices, as you are starting to question maybe some things you’re hearing in your faith tradition, consider whether or not they’re willing to answer your questions. Does asking questions make you come off as someone who’s sincere and trying to grow? Or do they vilify you for it? Do they start to ostracize you? Do you start feeling marginalized and othered because you’re asking questions? because what you’re being told doesn’t necessarily align with the scripture that you’re reading?

Ruth Perry (27:03)
Yeah, so that kind of brings us into the reorientation when you start seeing all of this, the recognition, and then you move into reorientation. What’s happening when the scales start to come off and what is the emotional experience of that?

Anthony Neely (27:16)
So as this scales start coming off, you have a few options. I mean, you can ignore it and just try to say, hey, I’m just going to bury my head in the sand and try to keep going. You can do, like we said, what many people have been doing during this period of great deterting. You can run away. You can flee and say, I’m done with this. And again, I understand people who have chosen that path.

Or you can say, God, I trust that you have allowed me to see this. And I’m going to ask you to just start revealing to me,
recognize that God has allowed me to see this and just pray that he is going to start tearing down those walls and how many of again using that naughty word deconstruct some of these issues. Complete side note, I don’t understand we in the evangelical world get so upset about the idea of deconstruction because deconversion and deconstruction are two completely different things.

Deconstruction ultimately is a form of repentance. The word to repent, you know, we always think of to turn around, but also means to think again, to change the way in which you’re thinking. So if you were building a house and you recognize that, you know, something is askew in your framing, you’re going to go back and you’re going to do away with, you’re going to deconstruct what was wrong in the construction process so that you can rebuild it so that it’s stronger. So I don’t really understand why we get so caught up in that term as a side note.

But as you are deconstructing and going through this very painful process so that you can rebuild your faith around Jesus, I can’t tell you that there’s any single, this is what you’re going to feel emotionally. Because for some people, it’s a sense of liberty and joy and freedom and excitement because they are seeing Jesus in ways that they’ve never experienced him before.

For others, it’s going to be painful and it’s going to hurt and you’re probably going to need some professional counseling and help to work through, you know, the feelings that you’re having and to process everything that you’re going through. For others, there may be the the issue of relational and communal separation, because you may get to a point where you say, need to seek out a new community. That my time here in this faith community has kind of come to an end. And so I need to find some place new.

And, you know, it’s hard to leave the, not just even tradition, but the friends that you’ve had and norms that you’ve had and the rhythms of like that you’ve had of this is just where I go and this is where I sit and here’s you know the Sunday school class I go to or whatever and so there can be there could be a lot of the struggle of starting over that comes along with that so it I would say for those who have recognized and those who are now going through the process of okay where do I go from here just know that whatever you’re feeling is okay to feel, how you’re feeling in that moment. God is big enough to handle whatever feelings you have, whatever questions you have, and all he asks is that we come to him in sincerity and honesty. And so if you need to scream into the sky, you scream into the sky. If you need to cry, if you need to laugh, if you need to get really, really angry, God’s big enough to handle those things.

Even though many of us, were brought up saying that you only talk to God in this very reverent tone. No, God welcomes us to come to him as we are. know, Hebrews, we’re told that we don’t have a high priest who can identify with us. There’s no emotion that we’re feeling that Christ himself didn’t feel. So he welcomes us to come to him. So whatever you’re feeling during that emotional element, just know that Jesus will walk with you through it as you are trying to figure out what your next steps are.

Ruth Perry (31:16)
I feel like I’ve had a lot of healing to do because of my background with coercive religion and just some spiritual trauma that I’ve been through with a church split that deeply impacted my family and also untangling myself from my patriarchal conditioning and trying to find my true authentic self under that conditioning. And I’ve had the financial barrier of not being able to afford therapy. And so I just, for years and years and years relied on books and reading online and finding people and listening to podcasts.

Then last year for a little while, I had enough extra income where I was able to afford EMDR therapy. And I’m like 15 or 16 years into my deconstruction process at this point. And it was really amazing to me how much trauma my body was holding and how effective being able to receive trauma therapy is. And so I had kind of that fresh like layer of anger at the world that we live in where these things are out of reach for so many people.

Anthony Neely (32:17)
No, absolutely. So just being, you know, transparent, part of my wife’s own faith journey is my wife is, always struggled with scrupulosity, which is basically religious OCD. The idea that everything that you do, which is very much so evangelical, you know, total depravity, all, everything you do is sin, blah, blah. Well, you take that somebody that already has some sort of dispositions in the way they think and they got to the point where my wife had stopped going to church.

And yeah, that process of recognizing the origins of your trauma and getting help for them. I’m glad that you got to a point where you’re able to go for the counseling and the EMDR. My wife was a compulsive reader and she found her solace, this entire bookshelf here is all Martin Lloyd Jones books. So her place of comfort, her solace was in reconstructing her faith through the writings of Martin Lloyd Jones. He has a book called Spiritual Depression and my wife has led some women’s book studies through it.

And I do think it’s interesting that you spoke to, you know, we as a society, political, whatever, we’re very quick to blame things on mental health, emotional health, but yet we’re constantly cutting funding and cutting access to those things because I’m so glad you were able to get now, but mercy, I wish you could have had that access 15 years ago, 20 years ago, and I’m so sorry that you didn’t.

Ruth Perry (33:54)
Yeah, I think just the difference in my nervous system being grounded and rooted versus like constantly being vigilant and on edge. It’s amazing.

Anthony Neely (33:59)
Yeah, it’s a physiological response. Yeah, and I talk about that in the book that it’s not just an emotional or spiritual response to, you know, coming, recognizing that you’ve been in a coercive system or going through autocracy. It’s physiological. Your heart rate increases, your anxiety spikes, your cortisol levels go through the roof, you lose sleep and, you know, God designed our bodies to send us messages.

And so, yeah, I just wish that within the church, my wife actually has, I got her a sweatshirt that says you can have Jesus in a therapist too. Because we, for some reason, we put up this wall between spiritual reformation and the mental and physical health element of it and when we are complete beings and all of it needs to be addressed and especially when you’re going through something as heavy as you know trying to work through the dissonance that comes from recognizing and trying to decide next steps of being in the coercive system or in the crazy political mess that we find ourselves in today.

Ruth Perry (35:12)
Another emphasis that you have under reorientation is on re-centering on Christ. What are some practices that help us strip away the layers of distortion and get back to Jesus?

Anthony Neely (35:22)
Yeah, so I know I put a lot of them in the book because again, this was like 10 years of what could we try? What can we do? I think it starts with revisiting scripture with fresh eyes. Do a slow reading. Look at Jesus and his dispositions. Who does he give attention to? What does he say to them? What accusations are thrown at him?

Because I think again, in this like, machismo, American Jesus kind of world that we live in right now, we have a very skewed, hyper-masculine view of Jesus that robs us from seeing that, you know, he was perfectly balanced. He would call, you know, abusive authority on the carpet, unflinchingly, but also he would welcome prostitutes and tax collectors. And he would spend time with these religious authorities, but then he also would be with, you know, the scum of the earth, basically, of his day. And so when we go back and we do a slow reading of scripture, I think that that helps us to better understand, you know, who we are and who he’s calling us to be and what it means to try to be more like Jesus.

I would say taking a break from social media or any kind of rage-based outlets is absolutely critical because if you just keep feeding the beast, the beast is going to want more and more and more. I say in the book that it’s really important to start finding God again in nature and I would also add to that in the arts.

Over and over over again, we see people in scripture, going into the wilderness, going, for lack of a better word, going on hikes, going on walks. And so I think that there’s something to be said as we’re walking through this, just being away from the hustle and bustle of the world and just being back in God’s creation. And with the arts element of that, our God is infinitely creative and I believe that all art reflects the beauty and the creativity of who God is.

And so for many traditions, you’re brought up being told that there’s this very hard line between the secular and the sacred. And I don’t necessarily buy into that. I believe that all art can reflect God’s creativity, whether the original artist it to or not. The other thing I would say is to rest. Part of, you know, the system is to be busy all the time. Busy, busy, busy, busy. To the extent that if for some reason you’re not knocking on doors on a Sunday afternoon or you’re not leaving Awanas on Wednesday night or whatever, then you’re taught that’s almost sinful. And so you get this mindset of

To be a Christian, to be, I have to do all of these things. And I have to be busy all the time. All that does is lead to resentment and burnout. So allow yourself the opportunity to just rest and get comfortable, become comfortable with the idea that Jesus took maps, you can too, it’s okay. Recognizing that what we see of people and scripture are very small snapshots of their lives. Most of their lives were very normal, going about doing their thing.

So you don’t have to be, know, doing crazy, pursuing crazy mountain top experiences every day, because again, you’re chasing experience. You’re not chasing after the person, the redemptive work of Jesus. With that though, I would also add in, for your service, try to be intentional about serving and spending time with people that your previous context had villainized or marginalized. Spend time with immigrants, spend time with the poor, spend time with the LGBTQ community, spend time in jail, spend time in all these places that you were told that a clean cut little shiny happy Baptist doesn’t go to and recognize that that’s where Jesus probably would be if he were here today.

I always tell people that if Jesus were walking around today, we’d probably be much more likely to find them in a trap house somewhere, talking to the drug dealers than at the country club, talking about their handicap and the next round of golf they’re playing. And so I think you were saying earlier, when we put ourselves in those positions and we can hear people’s when we rehumanize them after our traditions have tried to rob them of their senses, for whatever reason that I think we are becoming more in line with the heart of Christ.

Ruth Perry (40:02)
The next part of your book goes into our relationships and our community. And I think the most compelling part of that section for me was when you were talking about how to have fruitful conversations with people who have remained or having conversations that are gracious and merciful and loving instead of reactionary. I think that was really important. If you could just talk about that with my audience.

Anthony Neely (40:16)
Yeah.

Ruth Perry (40:26)
Because this is, think, the struggle for all of us is that we still have loved ones in coercive religion.

Anthony Neely (40:31)
The proverbial angry uncle at Thanksgiving dinner kind of… Yeah, so the way I talk about it in the book is trying to move from being an arsonist to being an architect. Do not… It’s so easy to do, but try not to become the progressive version of the far-right conservative thing that you’re trying to leave behind. Because it doesn’t really matter which end of the spectrum. If you’re constantly burning, you know, people with the sword that is your tongue, then that’s not going to lead to benefit for anybody. That’s not going to bring about reconciliation. That’s not going to bring about any kind of redemptive work. All it’s going to do is further divide.

And so, one of the things that I do is I have all kinds of notes in my phone where I just, have thoughts. I’m not denying I have thoughts where I just want to rip into people because they say something I’m just like, but I know that doesn’t benefit. So, I do have the space where in my phone I can just type those out and I have them there for myself rather than having to put them out on and using my platform, whatever it may be on social media or text or whatever, because all that’s going to do is serve as an arsonist. I’m just going to burn down. I’m going to cause more and more wedges because when we approach people with conflict, they’re going to dig their heels in.

So instead, I encourage in the book to practice a technique called motivational interviewing. Again, if you look at the life of Jesus, he asked a lot more questions than answers he ever gave. And so the whole point of motivational interviewing is, in sincerity, ask questions of people. You’re not trying to lead them. You’re not trying to get to some kind of predetermined outcome, but you’re trying to create space where people can maybe through the line of questioning that you give, they can consider and wrestle with what their beliefs are, why they hold to certain ideals.

And I think in doing so, if they know that you’re sincere, if they know that you are open to hearing their thoughts, if they know that you care about them, as a human even if you disagree with their ideas you care about them then they’re more likely to keep engaging with you. A good example of this is I have the SRO officer at my school. Wonderful guy. Love him. Such a cool guy. But he and I view some things in politics very differently.

And you know what? We will get together at lunch. You know all our kids are trying to keep them from throwing blueberries or whatever. And we will have wonderful conversations about these things where if people were doing it online, hiding behind the anonymity of a username and an avatar would be blasting each other. He and I walk away with fist bumps and, dude, this is so much fun. I’m glad we can talk.

And I think that’s what we need is to be able to approach each other as human beings saying, I disagree with your viewpoint. Let me ask some questions about why you hold yours. Not a got-you question, help me understand what you’re saying. And then the big thing that I’ve learned is always ask permission to share your thoughts. Don’t just barge in while I think blah, blah, blah, blah.

If you, no, if somebody says something then, they are much more welcoming to hear what you have to say if you would just say, is it okay if I share with you what I think about that? Is it okay if I tell you a time that I dealt with something like that? Because again, you are moving from arsonist to architect. You are tearing down those walls. You’re trying to break down people’s defenses so that you can have an actual conversation. Just like sharing the gospel with somebody, your goal is not conversion.

That is the spirit’s work. We have to trust the spirit to do what the spirit does, which is the transformation of people. What we are called to do is to love and engage. And when we move from arsonist to architect, we create those opportunities where maybe somebody walks away and they think, huh, you know, they referenced this book. Maybe I’m going to go check out that book.

You know, they were talking about how they used to follow that podcast, but they don’t follow that podcast anymore. Maybe I need to step away from it as well. And so just creating these spaces where you can have fruitful conversations is I think is ultimately what needs to be pursued. But we’re also human. And we understand that sometimes those conversations don’t need to be had. So I think there’s also an element of maturity in recognizing

that there’s some people that are ready to have those conversations and there’s some people who aren’t ready to have those conversations. And I think that’s why setting clear boundaries for yourself and being able to recognize this is robbing me of my peace, I’m trying to go on the offensive and having the courage and bravery to say, right now is not the time for us to have this conversation. You might make some people uncomfortable.

You might make some people upset, it’s also going to save you from saying something that ultimately could rip that relationship completely.

Ruth Perry (45:26)
And when you mess up, as we all inevitably do, when you’re living on this side coercive religion, you’re not going to go into a shame spiral or feel like a failure or internalize that kind of horrible feeling after. You can repent. You can apologize with sincerity and you can bask in God’s forgiveness and grace and mercy.

Anthony Neely (45:47)
Absolutely. And you know, I’m a big advocate for put your skeletons on display and let them dance. And so rather than pretending like you’re some kind of shiny, happy person who has everything perfect, like be vulnerable. It’s uncomfortable, but be vulnerable, be transparent and be able to say, I don’t know the answer to that. I don’t know. This makes me angry. I’m frustrated by this.

No, I don’t have an answer to the 47, you know, different podcasts quotes that you just threw at me. And, and not putting on this persona that I know everything, I have everything figured out. think that that’s freeing for us because we start realizing perfection was never the expectation for us that to quote Homer Simpson, I read this whole book and those people are really messed up except for this one guy.

And we started fighting, you know, freedom in understanding that we are flawed human beings and that can help us to hopefully move away from some of those shame spirals. When we learn to accept ourselves as Christ accepts us, then that can be a great stepping stone towards hopefully not beating ourselves up when we put our foot in our mouth or when we say or do something wrong because like he said, God loves us regardless.

God is infinitely and eternally delighted to call us his sons and daughters. God will never love us any more or any less than he does in this moment. And when we get to a point that we can start actually believing that, I don’t think we’ll ever fully comprehend it. But when we get to a point where we start believing

Ruth Perry (47:22)
Yeah, and this is going into the wholeness and the hope piece of your framework. I really liked when you spoke about Rich Mullins and Brendan Manning. Those are both people who have been really influential to me in finding my freedom in Christ. Can you speak to how they’ve been influential for you as spiritual guides?

Anthony Neely (47:40)
Sure, so I think Rich and Brennan did a couple things. If you guys don’t know Brennan Manning, he wrote Ragamuffin Gospel, which also was highly influential in Rich Mullen’s life. I think they both showed a couple things. One, is God loves to use a ragamuffin. We are screwed up, messed up people, but that’s exactly who God uses, I think shows that there’s power when they write there’s power in being transparent and sharing his story. Neither of them tried to hide the fact that they were rascals. I think we’re far enough removed from Rich now that we’ve started to like deify him. But Rich was very transparent. He was like, I like women. I like drinking. And a lot of times I’m a jerk but also I’m loved by Jesus and I’m called for his purposes and bring glory to his name.

And so I think understanding in their works that we are loved by a ridiculous amount of grace and mercy and that is what holds us, not us, but God’s ridiculous amount of grace and mercy what holds us brings that freedom and I think that’s one of things I’ve taken so much from not not just you know incredible song lyrics and incredible composition but the idea that God loves to use the people that everyone else thinks is gutter trash basically. That there is no person who is Too low down or too high up that God cannot use them in phenomenal ways. Brennan was an alcoholic, Rich, like I said, had all of his struggles, but here we are today and we’re still talking about their influence for the kingdom. We’re not talking about those things.

Ruth Perry (49:25)
Yeah, that’s really beautiful. And I just want to say how beautiful your book is. It’s really good news and really hopeful. the whole book is a beautiful resource for people who are going through this difficult journey of scales falling from their eyes and trying to reimagine a new faith or move forward. And I really love that you include questions at the end of each chapter and a prayer for reflection.

So you can use that individually or you can use it with a group. And then at the end of your book, you include a whole list of resources, including a Spotify playlist of people from, I agree, music has always been really important in my spiritual journey. it’s oftentimes God has like brought me a song or an artist in a time when I’m struggling that’s really ministered to me.

Anthony Neely (50:11)
Yeah, I put that playlist I’d actually had for myself for a couple years, because those were songs that were speaking exactly to what I was feeling, by left of center artists, primarily Christian artists. But they were just speaking to what in the world is going on politically, socially.

How in the world does this reflect Jesus? And I found so much comfort and solace. was like, it’s something I’m just going to link to in the book. I’m going to put it in the book because maybe somebody else is having a day of more news coming down the pipeline and more files being released of horrible, horrible things happening. And they’re just like, God, where are you in this? there’s some songs here that in a non-cheesy cliche way can remind me of that I’m not the only one feeling the way.

Ruth Perry (51:01)
If someone is on the brink of walking away from their faith, what would you say to that person?

Anthony Neely (51:06)
I see you. You’re allowed to feel how you feel. I have a sweatshirt that I wear. Not this one. This one says radicalized by basic decency. But I have a sweatshirt that I wear that says, I’m sorry the church hurt you. I think that’s the first thing that people need to hear is that their feelings are valid. And so I would start there and say, I see you. I hear you.

I would tell them that they’re loved, that they will never comprehend whether they keep going to church or stop going to church or take a break from the faith or whatever, that they’re eternally loved, that Jesus is big enough to handle their questions, to handle their doubts, and he welcomes them, he calls them his children.

I have a two-year-old and a six-year-old, and our two-year-old’s going through sleep regression right now. And about two o’clock every morning, he starts screaming, Daddy! Daddy! And I go in, and I take care of him, and it reminds me of a quote that I heard once that the only person who would ever dare wake a king from his sleep to ask for a drink is a son or a daughter. And so just to know that you can come to God with honesty and he welcomes you and it’s okay to get mad, to get angry, get frustrated because he’s big enough to take that and whichever path you decide to go, know that he loves you.

And I think that’s why I tell him. I’m not going to tell him, well you gotta do this, this, or this, or you need to just keep going, no, feel what you need to feel. Process it, recognize there’s people who want to walk through you with it, people that are feeling and have gone through the same thing as you reach out to them, find communities, be brave and ask the questions that you need to ask. And my hope is that they would find some solace in knowing that I wouldn’t be trying to force them to stay in a system that they have felt duped and abused by, but I do hope that they would walk away knowing that the God of all creation loves them so intimately.

Ruth Perry (53:16)
Amen. That was beautiful. Thank you. Where can people find your work, Tony?

Anthony Neely (53:19)
Absolutely. You can go to scalesoffbook.com. The book is available on Amazon in print and ebook form. And I always throw it out there. There used to be a Christian singer named Eli in the early 2000s. I always loved on the back of his CDs. It said, if you can’t afford the CD, call this number and we’ll send you a copy.

So my thing is always if you want to read the book I did not put the book out there to try to make money off of it Other things I’ve done is like these are lead Mac. There’s no lead magnet. There’s no course there’s no upsell and so I keep the ebook at like 99 cents. I Keep the the printed book on Amazon 9.99; if you can’t afford that there’s a contact page on my website. Click on that, send me a message, I’ll send you a PDF of the book. I just want to get as many hands of people as I can who are walking through a place of just being so frustrated with what they’re seeing, so hurt with what they’re seeing right now and trying to process it. And if it can be a resource to help them, shoot me a message and I’ll make sure you get a copy.

Ruth Perry (54:26)
That’s so amazing. Wow. Now nobody has an excuse not to read this book. It is well worth your time and your money. And I hope people do read it. And thank you so much for coming on the podcast today to talk about it. God bless you, Tony.

Anthony Neely (54:40)
Same to you, ma’am. Thank you so much for having me.


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